Why can’t 2 people who loves each other just be together?
Right now I feel like that that fate is being so cruel right now. Why is he suffering? Why am I suffering? Can’t you give us a chance? Sorry to say but I’m not giving till it’s impossible. And “nothing’s impossible because the word itself says ‘I’m possible’”. I know that when we get through this, we’re going to so strong. Although for now it hurts and I’m miserable, but I’m going to hold on to him as long as I can.
I don’t have any advice as to how to make LDRs work out, all I know it that communication is key.
And I go CRAZY when I don’t hear from him.
I have never been so insecure in a relationship before, never had my mind run wild with negative scenarios of he’s doing when I don’t hear from him.
The only thing that keeps me together is hearing from him. But I, unfortunately, is dating someone who doesn’t not text a lot. Lucky me, since most everyone in the 20th century is 24/7 on their phones and texts constantly.
What to do?
I’m surprised that I’ve held on to this for so long. Though I can assure you that it feels great when I do see him. Our relationship feels so fresh and new yet very familiar. Everyone tells me that if we’re able to get through this, our relationship will be strong. Will it? I honestly don’t know because I always feel like we’re at our weakest point.
My babe is so stressed :(
I wish I could be there to take his stress away…
Why Are Guys So Insensitive part 2
Continuing the previous story, a few hours later, he called lol because he “sensed” that I was mad.
Babe chose to work out —> sleep instead of calling me…. (T_____T)
We haven’t FaceTimed for 2 nights now… so really? You picked working out over calling me. WOW, I feel so special.
Actually, a lot of guys are very insensitive. PLEASE GO WATCH SOME KOREAN DRAMAS AND TAKE NOTES.
Babe hasn’t called… and I don’t know if he will call. I don’t know if he’s just fallen asleep or he’s busy or he just got those crazy thoughts again on distancing himself so I’ll find someone else. BOY, it doesn’t work that way. If I like you, I like you. You can’t change how I feel. Wherein our case, I love you and you love me. Why are you trying to change it? Also… we’re already miles apart :/ isn’t that distance enough already? *sigh* I hope it’s the first two possibilities… Scratch that. Babe just loves X-Factor more than me since he’s willing to sacrifice sleep to watch that.
Ever since the “almost break up”, I’m feeling more insecure more than ever :( Especially when we didn’t get to FaceTime the day after (I went to bed early) and yesterday night as well (he went to bed early and I was out).
We chatted a little just now but it was very short-lived because babe was so tired and I was eating dinner :(
I really feel like crying right now because I’m scared. I’m scared that babe will try to push me away again because he can do so so easily. I miss him so much. I want to see him so badly. I want to kiss him. I want him to hold me tight and never let go :’(
2 days ago, I had experienced a near-heartbreak. NEAR because it wasn’t a break up… ALMOST but apparently it was all in my head :S
My babe had said something about how he hates missing me and I had asked would not texting/calling me makes missing me better? (because prior this conversation, he didnt text/call me for one whole day). HE HAD SAID YES. I was crushed because that automatically translates to me that he doesn’t want me anymore; he doesn’t want to love me anymore…Then after awhile, I had texted him you don’t ever have to call me again. After I hit the “send” button, I thought this is it. And I start crying hysterically and suddenly I felt so alone and so unloved. I thought to myself, wow, so this is what having your heartbroken feels like. I had never had my heart broken before… :( I didn’t know what to do.
At that moment when I sent him the text, I had thought that if he didn’t want me anymore, then I would just cut him out of my life. THIS. Now I know why none of my ex wants anything to do with me anymore. Now I know why they won’t agree to the “let’s-be-friends” thaaang because I would not have maintained a friendship with this boy if he no longer wanted me.
I guess the idea of me cutting him out of my life scared him. The next day when he called (I had asked him too :P Look how weak-hearted I am… but he had said he would call anyway despite of what I said :P ), he had said that I misunderstood what he meant. But I swear! That’s exactly what he said. I may have misinterpreted of him not loving me anymore, but I know that he tried pushing me away again because he feels that we shouldn’t hang on to each other with such a vast distance between us. But he kept denying it and saying that I got it wrong. He won’t never not want me.
I guess this was his subtle way of taking everything back. Meh, I’ll take it :)
Because at the moment, I cannot let go of this boy. I love him.
Even though there are times when we’re quiet. just knowing that you’re there on the other line is enough for me. And when we do talk, I can’t help but smile, even if our conversation isn’t about anything funny. I love hearing your voice and I love knowing that you’re willing to take time out of your day just to talk to me.
When my babe said that he loves me, I asked him why.
Lol totally caught him off guard :P (he asked why i asked afterwards haha)
He said “because you’re so sweet”. So I joked around and said, “so any girl be sweet to you and you’ll love them?” And he’s like, “noo”.
So apparently it’s only my kind of sweet :) too bad girlies :P